Pumpkin Carving

Every year I buy a couple of pumpkins to decorate the front porch for Halloween. I don't carve them. I don't carve them because I want to save the fun of pumpkin carving to do with my children. Each year I think...by next year...but next year comes and I still don't have a little one to dress up and take trick or treating. I decided today that I will carve the pumpkins. I have to say..I had a lot of fun doing it. I thought I would feel sad...but I didn't.

My Very First Post

After years of thinking about starting a blog, I finally decided it's time. Actually I was encouraged by two of the gals from my fertility group. They said it's like therapy and that I'll never need a therapist.
I probably should have started this blog six years ago when all this infertile business came about.
A little bit of background....
My husband, who I will call call DH (his first initial of his full name is actually H) and I first started trying for a baby about 6.5 years ago...1 year after being married. We have been through 9 IUI's, 7 IVF's (2 with IVIG) and 2 FET's. All of that and not a single pregnancy. We closed the chapter of trying to get my body pregnant this past August. It turns out that although we make beautiful embryo's, I have an implantation problem.
We have decided to proceed with Gestational Surrogacy. A GS is someone who will carry our baby using my own eggs and DH's sperm to form the embryo's. DH uses the analogy of baking our cake in someone elses oven.LOL. This is both exciting and at the same time very frightening to me. Exciting because of the possiblity of having our own child, frightening because it is all new to me and I would have to go through yet another IVF in order to retrieve my eggs. I don't react well to IVF..it takes me a good month to recover. I also run the risk of OHSS (Ovarian Hyper Stimulation Syndrome) since I had it moderate-severe the time before last and was hospitalized for a week.Anyway...that's it for my first post!